Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I've retreated...

...somewhat from blogging my innermost feelings, thoughts, worries. It hasn't been on purpose.

It's just easier....and satisfying and fun to simply post warm, happy pictures and recollections from my best moments. To 'carefully construct' my reality into a nostalgic and beautiful scene to portray 'my world' to you....and maybe my children who may look back on these posts one day. Of course, I do want to remember those exquisite moments in all their vivid, euphoric, 'perfection'.

But Ryan sometimes teases me that he'll post about the messy kitchen, the laundry piles, the loud, chaotic evenings that seem to race towards BEDTIME in a frantic, exhausting blur....
I suppose I do need a frequent dose of reality in my blogging/archiving. :)

So tonight, I'm not just posting pictures or cute stories. I'm writing again, and attempting for the moment, to be more transparent. (If you know me, you might laugh at that aim..."to be MORE transparent"...as if I should really aspire to that end.)

Within my real world, I'm feeling worried, conflicted, frustrated. Small circumstances, relatively insignificant things said, or not said, can take so much of my joy. Even as I sit and count all the new (and old) life-giving friendships I've been given, the family that I adore, the obscenely rich lifestyle I have been allowed to lead, my fulfilling work that I enjoy, the people all over the world that I love...I can become completely overwhelmed by, immersed in such trivial worries.

But instead of just 'journaling' or venting.....or even silently worrying, I'll try to rediscover Peace.

My 'conversation' would be better directed in prayer.

O God, by whom the meek are guided in judgment, and light rises up in darkness for the godly: Grant us, in all our doubts and uncertainties, the grace to ask what you would have us to do, that the Spirit of wisdom may save us from all false choices, and that in your light we may see light, and in your straight path may not stumble; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Ryan's half day Friday...

Sweet Potato Leaves

  1. Cut sweet potatoes into 1/4" slices.
  2. Using cookie cutters, make leaves, pumpkins, and acorns. (We used mini-cookie cutters)
  3. Spread pieces onto baking sheet sprayed with vegetable oil.
  4. Lightly sprinkle 'cookies' with a mixture of cinnamon, sugar, and brown sugar.
  5. Bake at 375 degrees for about 20 minutes... until leaves begin to look slightly crispy.

Friday, October 10, 2008

An evening of organ music and homemade apple pie

I made apple pie this week....

Some of it was shared with Grandma & Grandpa...

(Maya LOVED Grandma Marge's organ)

...and some of it, was enjoyed later at home.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008