Monday, July 23, 2007
...to post these way back in June. My mom and sister Lynn both posted more great pictures and thoughts from this weekend celebrating my parents 40 YEAR marriage!
We rented this lodge near Traverse City and spent the weekend cooking, eating, cleaning up, swimming, talking by the fire, visiting Traverse City, and running after small children.
As always, it was chaos. But the kind of chaos we subject ourselves to by choice...and only out of deep love.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
learning French (I've actually finished a course on tape for the first time in my life---I've borrowed them from libraries at least 4 times now),
soaking up some opera, some Cole Porter, and Leonard Bernstein,
long conversations with my Mandy,
warm afternoon sunlight,
a Madeline L'Engle interview on tape,
Angela's Ashes audiobook...
Next up...A Wrinkle In Time (a long ago read, and sadly, forgotten book by my new favorite author).
If only my car didn't require so much gas...
...I think I could really learn to like driving.
(So..I probably should have spent the last hour studying for my mid-term ...instead of blogging. I wish I could find a way to safely do THAT while driving!)
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
and revealed to be less than I imagined.
is impossible to miss. It is overwhelming and delightful. One piece of the shadow can disappear and the light pouring in is suddenly and blissfully blinding.
One of the more persistent shadows just disappeared.
It's not my news to share yet.
(If you checked all my friend links, you might find it)
But I'm jittery and silly with happiness.
Friday, July 13, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
I just uploaded my camera again and found a few more images from our week in Indianapolis...
This shady tree-covered sidewalk was our favorite stretch on our walks...
Our night time view...(we actually didn't see it until our last night there when we realized we'd kept the curtains closed every evening from 8:00pm till morning--so that one particular member of our family would go to sleep and STAY asleep all night)
Sunday, July 08, 2007
It seems so meaningless to ache with hurt when it can't fix anything.
I wish my ability to carefully construct the world around me into a sepia toned, nostalgic, warm and fuzzy dream world could actually mend the brokenness that seems to lurking in too many corners right now.
This selfish craving of my own personal warmth and security in knowing the people I love are fulfilled, happy, loved...
...doesn't mean that they are fulfilled, happy, loved.
And all of my imaginative, artistic, naive wishing doesn't really hold any power to alter reality or hide the truth that life is not...sepia toned.
If it could somehow, magically (miraculously?) restore some of the hope, truth, depth into some of the broken things around me...would I be willing to give up the comfort (and appearance) of my own 'fairytale-ish' life?
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
In God's loving presence I unwind the past day,
starting from now and looking back, moment by moment.
I gather in all the goodness and light, in gratitude.
I attend to the shadows and what they say to me, seeking healing, courage, forgiveness.
Lord, grant me the grace to be free from the excesses of this life.
Let me not get caught up with the desire for wealth.
Keep my heart and mind free to love and serve you.
(words from Sacred Space.)
And most of the time, I can feel everything...for everyone.
But tonight the heavy chaos around me and my own (mostly happy) chaos have left me with a kind of false tranquility, even ambivalence...
...a way of distancing and preserving myself from all the hurt of others that I usually immerse myself in?
Maybe I'm just tired.
But the cloudiness seems thicker than fatigue.