...there seems to be far more chaos than even I can feel. So much confusion and brokenness that I can't seem to focus enough to even feel anything.
And most of the time, I can feel everything...for everyone.
But tonight the heavy chaos around me and my own (mostly happy) chaos have left me with a kind of false tranquility, even ambivalence...
...a way of distancing and preserving myself from all the hurt of others that I usually immerse myself in?
Maybe I'm just tired.
But the cloudiness seems thicker than fatigue.