...the validity of asking questions without finding answers. the exhaustion that comes from questioning everything.
...church. how i usually determine my own personal 'satisfaction' with church by considering how my intellectual, emotional, entertainment needs are met. how i really long to please Christ...to be a loving bride. to honor his sacrifice by learning to love and submit as He did. to build and strengthen Christ's body by living a life of love, forgiveness, and grace instead of cynicism and pride.
...sadness that my brother Daniel won't be my pastor for very much longer. I've loved it.
...the obnoxious amount of screaming that goes on at concerts...especially 'Christian concerts'...where the lines are not always clear about whether we are screaming about Jesus or Toby Mac.
...dreading the close of summer, and the freedom i enjoy these days.
...loving my students and being energized by the time i spent with them today. kindergarteners are really fun. so are high-schoolers. my job is perfect.
...Ryan...is so almost done with school. I can't wait to feel that burden lifted for him.
...how much i really like the movie, "Love Actually."
...cherishing the amazing neighbors we find ourselves living next to...
...the sadness of realizing that relationships are different from what they used to be. that things I've shared with people...are no longer something we have in common...that i've changed (in good ways and bad). that i've hurt people. that i've been a bad friend who sometimes uses people. that i act out of selfish motives...often.
...gratitude...to have so many wise, loving people in my life to learn from and talk (write) to about ideas, about faith, about truth.